Why Do People Hate?

People hate me because I'm me. Because I'm not afraid to talk to that hot guy that everyone is nuts over. Because I walk down the street dancing and singing along to my ipod. Because i wear what I want and not what people want me to wear. Because I will gladly stand up and do the most embarassing thing in the world and laugh about it afterwards.

Do you hate me because I express myself?

Do you hate me because you think I'm so outgoing and giddy?

Well Guess what?

I'm not the person you think I am...

I'm just a shell... that happiness you see...it's fake.

But nobody likes the fakeness...would you rather have the real me?!

The me that they don't understand one bit?

The me that sits in her closet at night, crying and hoping that all this shit will end?

I'd rather keep her to myself.

But you shouldn't hate me just because you don't like the fakeness... I don't like it either. But I have no idea how to change.

I have no idea how to make things right again...

Everything has just changed so much since last year.

Sometimes it feels good to go through life feeling unaccepted but sometimes...it's a real bitch.

I don't give a damn what people think of me, but you know, it'd be really nice for at least someone to notice...I'm not asking much really, just for someone...anyone...to understand me.

One Kiss in the end:

In the end of time

will everything be okay?

I don't want it to be chaotic,

just you and me together

thats enough of a wish

to make my head spin.

Before we die, with fingers interwined

one kiss is all i ask.

something that will warm my heart

even after it stops forever.

This wont be a dream,

it will be as real as

the world is round.

As death begins to pull us apart

i feel your finger touch

the tears on my cheek.

Time stops when our lips meet.

My heart has melted away

and like i had always thought

when we died together

nothing like deaths cold hand

could tear us apart then.

confusion

Things have been weird lately. just so confusing. And i hate to admit it but my friend likes this guy... but i think he likes me. idk.

Anyway, I think my life is taking a huge turn. So much is different now...... oh hey i wanted to show everyone some of my poetry:

first one is called marked by life. enjoy:

The purple smudges on my arms

from unconditional love

reminded me of the times

when pain was all I felt.

After awhile it seemed all the same

and slowly but surely

the pain just melted away.

Feelings merged together in my mind

and i never knew when to smile or cry.

In the end, everything had been washed down the drain,

except for my bruises

and the pain they left behind.

next one is called one of the nobodies

Border line on the edge of insanity,

i wait for your voice to pull me back in.

When i hear no sound, tears roll down my cheeks

then i let myself fall into the black pit

of nobodies and nothing.

As i sink deeper and deeper,

i think of your smile.

i think of the warmth i feel

whenever you walk into the room.

How the sun always shines brighter

when your eyes meet with mine,

and i'll try to never forget

even when i'm a nobody

rotting away at the end

with the rest of the nothings of time.

I have been writing for a year and two months and have written about 229 poems. I hope you like these so far.

Thanks for reading!

Bunny out

BBFF(Best bunnies friends forever)

Oh no! I don't know what I'm going to do. I have to go to my cast party TONIGHT. If you didn't know I was in a play called Cap' N' Hook and I was one of the lost boys, Sally. I mean I was one of the lost kids hints the whole sally thing(Sally=lost girl). It really isn't that that I'm worried about though. Well....I'm to nervous to even tell my own blog. HEE HEE!! Well today I had to go to a Solo and Ensemble thing 8:00 in the morning. I really hope I make a nice score. 1 being the highest and 5 being the lowest. By my performance(I played Amazing Grace)I think I could have possibly made a 2 or 3. But the best part was that I saw my old friend from Appling there and we were so excited to see each other again. I kind of feel bad for her though because she's like really short(munchkin short...That was kind of my nickname for her)but now since I last saw her I hardly even recognized her. Well she hardly recognized me either. She had grown about a foot or taller because I've grown about six inches since then. I'm relly glad I saw her today and who knows we could start texting again. By the way I hope the Cast Party goes good tonight because I;m still really worried

Go Memphis. I am A MemPHIS BUnny

Yeaaaaa. memphis beat Maryland. Oh and I accidentally published a video on youtube that I totally didn't want to. Maddie keeps singindg that stupid YOU SPIN MY HEAD ROUND. She is starting to get on my nerves. Wow she sure can yell. Gees I got to go.

The Big and Furry Topic Changer

Hooray!!! Memphis won the big game. Go!!! Memphis! Ok nevermind that. I have had no dreams since a couple of dreams after that dream about that guy I like. Well besides that one of him at the swimming pool. Oh don't worry we weren't like...you know... in the dream. It was just really weird and I can't remember it. 

Nothing much is going on right now. I just finished watching Sixteen Candles. I just love how they made fun of that on Family Guy. 

Family Guy is ssssooooo funny. I love that show. The episode with O.J Simpson made me laugh about how crazy Stewie is. Seth Green should seriously become a comedian.

In other news, I just found out that Barack Obama is going to star on The Late Show as the first president(geezz) to be on his show.

I hate that I sound soo topic shifting but I really Have To Say. I love the House Of Night Series. Man I love Marked. Don't get me wrong, I lurve Twilight too.(hee hee)

Fun With the Play!

OMG! I'm in a play and we had are first performance today. The next one is tomorrow. But I got so embarassed because while I was doing a scene I tripped and fell!!!!!! Oh by the way the play is called Cap'N Hook. I am supposed to be one of the "Lost Kids", Sally. What is really funny is that the Lost Boys(and girl) are supposed to be really dumb. It is so good and I hardly even noticed the audience. It was like a big brick wall had grown from the stage. Thanks for listening. THIS IS THE FUNNY BUNNY 22!!!! OOOOHHH YYYEEAHHH!!!!!!!!